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Mar 25, 2008 - 16:45 PM PST

well, being a believer in 'everything happens for a reason' is a funny thing. the day before i leave for my florida trip, i get a call saying that my ex (clint, the one i've been having the dreams about, who lives in FL) just broke up with his girlfriend. so of course i see him when i go to town, that was inevitable. i ended up seeing him practically every day i was there, mostly by coincedence, and on the days i didn't see him, i saw his newly ex-ed girlfriend. interesting. anyway, it was really good to catch up with him and not having the weirdness of him being in a relationship. we got to hang out and just kind of be friends, which was cool. i think maybe the dreams and his breakup and the timing of everything were to sort of help me move along in my progress of getting over him? maybe. it has put him on my mind a lot more, and we've even spoken a few times since i've gotten home. i don't know if it's helping or hurting in the long run, but i guess we will see.
and apparently it was national ex boyfriend week, because the other guy (lee) started texting me on saturday. just wanted to see how i was doing.. telling me i should stop by his city on my way home.. blah blah blah. i'm starting to think he's going to do this every time he's lonely, and i really can't be that girl for him. he also friend requested me on myspace, wondering if we had been 'accidentally unfriended.' i chose to not go into explanation as to why i had deleted him. even if i did explain it, it would still seem like i was being petty and immature.
so i guess this is all part of the process of me getting over everyone and moving on with my life, but i can't help but feel like i'm sort of backtracking, having both clint and lee on my mind again. but i'm just taking it as it comes and trying my hardest not to bring any of it on myself.