sound, music, anything, well - music

Mar 10, 2008 - 08:19 AM PST

So, as I stepped out of my car this morning I did not want to do it. I begged myself to stop. It's a burden. To have to come to work each day. Well, three days a week. And yeah, internship. But it is a burden. Why, you may ask? Because I am forced to turn of my radio or CD in the car, step out into the cold, and walk into the building where I will sit, stand, walk around, listen to kids complain or not complain, do paperwork, attend supervision, attend meetings, run meetings, go online and vent... all without music.

I found speakers for my computer in a drawer when I came here and they don't work. It SUCKS. They suck. I am truly a musical person. I have been in choirs since at least elementary school. I was in each of my high school musicals (haha - no); chorus member/fair attendee/kid/cowboy toy in Big, Grandmother Tzeitel in Fiddler on the Roof, and featured dancer (aka stalk of corn, chearleader, table, wife, servant, mother, etc) in Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat. In HS, I was also in All-County chorus, Area All-State co-ed 2 or 3 times and women's choir once, I was in select chorus for 2 years, regular chorus for 4 years (including a year of alto and soprano - the rest soprano and sometimes teaching a bass his part, in his octave), women's chorus the one year they had it. I was in the teen choir at my church throughout HS and into the beginning of college. I competed in NYSSMA every year and ran registration the year it was at my HS. In college, I was in Singers for 4 years (trasferring from a school that I was in their choir), on the Singers Board for 3, in Chamber Singers for 3 (all I could since I trasferred), sang in Disney World, was in Women's Select Singers senior year when it started, sang at Carnegie Hall twice... Oh, and I had a music minor undergrad.

So just a few things. And now? No music. I'm at a loss. I'm perturbed to say the least that the friggen speakers don't work. I actually have this weird little CD case thing that plugs into a headset plug and works as speakers, but I would have to remember to bring it it, early in the morning when I'm already running late and not wanting to carry more stuff. When I went to Barbados, I brought it full of CDs and brought my discman. It was so nice to have music. I also had some random music on an mp3 player so I listened to that too. My sister had actually put a movie on the mp3 player so I listened to Foxfire as I did my homework (yes, homework - I took a psychology class in Barbados).


And there's the bell. Class has ended or begun. The bell is the closest thing to music here, but it really isn't. I'm tempted to listen to my annoying cellphone ringtones just to not have silence. Stupid computer speakers.