Stop and breathe

Apr 10, 2008 - 07:37 AM PST

So most of the time I am a go with the flow kind of person. Not much can truly affect me, but recently my mother has decided to go back to college which I thought was great for her. But because I am in school she got a full pell grant. She doesn't help me what so ever and I work full time and go to school full time. I mean I don't really need her help it's just that I'm am going to have so many loans and bills and I pay for everything and because I pay for everything she gets free schooling. This makes me so angry because she didn't even offer to help me when she found out that she was going to get free schooling. These kind of things don't usually get to me but I just wish I had the opportunity for free schooling and on top of that she is quiting her job. She said she wants to focus on schooling because no one is going to look at her resume and say well she has been working and going to school that's why she has mediocre grades. That is what I was banking on, even if it is a pipe dream...please don't burst my bubble. So here I am angry at her for being excited for free money and angry at myself for being angry. I usually don't get jealous over this kind of stuff, but I just am so tired of working and studying and having no life. I need to get one. She even is quitting her job over the summer and here I am going to be working 80 hours at two jobs...not internships but jobs and Im also taking three online courses on top of that. Ugh I am so frustrated...I just need to stop and breathe.