streams of consciousness

Jun 21, 2008 - 13:41 PM PST

The tears are streaming down my face and it is obvious that I have no idea why. Everything is content in my life. A lot of things are going to be happening but currently it is all just standing still. How do we know when we are ready? Ready for what you may be wondering? I have no clue, I suppose I mean everything. How do you know when you are ready to move somewhere else, get a new job, tell that someone special that they are your someone special. Do you just get that feeling, that overwhelming feeling that drives you from the core of your soul? I get that feeling sometimes I guess, i never really know what it means though. I wish to be a child again. I wish to feel that innocence that I lost long before it was right for someone to loose it. I wish I could say that things were simple one time, but they never were. I doubt they ever will be and if they were I'd just mess it up to make it difficult again. I guess i love complicated.