Stupid Drunks......

Apr 16, 2008 - 11:06 AM PST

I finally found my webcam so I will hopefully start making some videos, but this'll hav to do for now...
Ok, I'm going to vent a little. I want to move. I want to move out of this city, out of this state. My biggest reason? Friends. Or lack thereof. It is impossible to find decent friends in this city. The only real places to find ppl my age in this town are crappy smokey bars and the ppl you find there are the ppl who like those same crappy smokey bars. What is SO great about drinking!?! I really don't understand it. People actually brag about the fact that they are going to go 'get wasted tonight'. How can you be proud of that? Don't get me wrong, I'm not condemning alcohol or drinking for pleasure etc; I just think there's a distinct line. A line between having a few drinks because you enjoy it, you like the taste, or you like the feeling you get from a buzz and getting completely stupidass drunk for no other reason than to look "cool" in front of your other "cool" friends. I've heard ppl say that they black out every time they drink. How can that be fun? How can you know you have fun drinking when you don't remember anything? All you're doing is looking like an asshole. That brings me to another point. Now this could just be the difference between 2 bodies, but I always remember what happens when I'm drunk. I can be the drunkest I've ever been (and I'm a very small girl so it doesn't take much) and I will remember the whole night. Not to say some details aren't fuzzy sometimes, but there has never been a time where I woke up the next morning and didn't remember what happened the night before. Also on that note: I have complete control over what I do and don't do. My decision-making may be impaired, I may be more outgoing, but I can always say No. That's why I think using being drunk as an excuse for bad behaivior is bullshit. (and when I say bad behavior, I mean more like cheating on your significant other types of behavior, not saying something stupid and obnoxious)
I guess I am pretty adamant about this subject because I had a boyfriend sleep with one of my then friends because he was "drunk". GGrrrrr. I'm over that now, but its the principle that sticks with me.
So going back to the point of this whole thing....I want better friends than the stupid drunk assbitches (excuse my language) that are to be found in my hometown. I want to be able to have a good conversation about more than what drinks I feel like having tonight. I want to be able to do silly things together without feeling stupid. For example, the other night I was hanging out with a friend from back in high school and we sat at my house listening to music and coloring. Yes, coloring. It was fun, we talked and rocked out and colored. No, I'm not to old for that, and no I don't feel stupid for it. Frankly, it was more fun than most of my bar experiences.
Now, not saying coloring is the only alternative activity, just that it is an alternative.
I feel like I am just complaining and that's not what I am trying to do. I'm just trying to get my feelings out into the world and off my chest. Not that stuff won't still bother me. :c)
Well, I'm just going to post this instead of reading over it so that I don't edit it, so sorry for any typos! Alright, live long and prosper, hehe, j/k, peace.