Surviving My Quarterlife 11

Feb 15, 2008 - 15:36 PM PST

So it has been a long time since I have written in here. I have been busy working, which is good. I have been working at a market research company that is associated with the entertainment industry. That literal work that I do is not very interesting, but it pays the bills. Anyway, all I have been doing is working and exercising. I have been running at least 5 miles per day and lifting weights about five or six days per week. So that is what I have been spending all of my time doing.

I hooked up with ONS the day before Valentine's Day. I guess I can't really call them ONS anymore because they are no longer just a One Night Stand. They are trainging for the Boston Marathon, which is interesting considering we live in Los Angeles, and they run a marathon every year so I will call them Marathon from now on.

So Marathon and I hooked up a second time. It was very quick, down, and dirty, but it was fun. Afterwards, Marathon said that we should get a drink sometime. Inside I just want to scream, "YES, lets get a drink now or tomorrow or this weekend!" but of course I can't bring myself to say that because I do not want to seem desperate. This trying to build a relationship stuff is difficult. When you are in the beginning of a relationship and you don't know the other person very well it is so hard to know what to say and what to not say. Obviously I want to just be myself, but sometimes it feels like just being myself might give off the wrong impression. To be yourself or not to be, that is the question. Okay, I am lame. Anyway, I am just trying to figure out how to let the other person know that I am interested without seeming too interested that I scare them off. Should I tell them how much I really want to be in a serious relationship with them or not?
For now I think not because I am scared of the alternative. I am too scared of them saying
"Oh, well I am not really too interested in having a serious relationship." So for now I will just keep it too myself until I get some kind of sign or hint that they are interested in more than just sex.

Okay, I have to go. I will write more later.