Surviving My Quarterlife 15

Apr 04, 2008 - 20:28 PM PST

Lately I am feeling that all I have been doing my entire life is waiting. I feel like ever since I was in about 5th grade I have been waiting. First I was waiting to be in High School, then I was waiting to graduate and go to college, then I was waiting to graduate from college. And now, since I graduated from college, I have been waiting to start a real career and have a serious long-term relationship. I will admit that there have been moments of my life when I didn't feel like I was waiting. You know, times when something really exciting happens. Something so exciting that time stops and you aren't thinking about the past or the future. All you can do is think about that moment. I guess those are the moments to live for. If anyone is familiar with the TV show My So-called Life, it is like in the first episode when Angela and Rayanne "have a time." Something real and exciting happened to them, even if it was a little dangerous. I feel like I am waiting to have lots of times like those characters. I don't think I am the only person in his 20s who feels this way, but I still wish I didn't feel this way.

More and more often I find myself thinking "when is life going to get really good?" I do try hard to improve my life, but I still get discouraged. I have to keep reminding myself to be patient and determined. Never give up, never surrender! I honestly can't think of anything I would rather do than do what I am doing in LA. This is where I want to be and have to be to build the career that I want. That is fine, but when is something really going to start happening???

If anyone else feels this way, please let me know because it would be nice to talk to someone about it. I am going to keep on keep'n on, but I just want life to get more interesting in a good way.

Good luck to everyone with whatever you are doing with your lives. I hope you figure out what you want to do with your lives and that you get to do it. Just try to appreciate the good things in your life. Talk to you later.