the dress

May 13, 2008 - 07:47 AM PST

So in a little less than a year and a half I will be getting married and the number one question on everyone's mind is did you get the dress? And the answer is no I did not! I don't feel comfortable with my body. And yes I know that no one not even supermodels feel comfortable about their bodies, but it is pure torture for me. I want to be beautiful on my wedding day, but the thought of some sales woman helping me into wedding gowns is so scary. I want to lose a significant amount of weight before then, which is plausible but realistically with all of the things that are going on in my life it is so hard to stick to any regimen. I know the fact that I think I am going to look like the Michelin man in a wedding dress is laughable to most, it is a true fear. Granted I have yet to try any on yet, and my fear will be changed once I do. I am still terrified. Mainly because if I try a wedding dress on and I look fine (which honestly is what is going to happen) I will just laugh at myself for being silly, but if I do look as bad as I fear I will I think I will have a complete meltdown. So I would just like if I could be happy and plan my wedding without every single person in my life asking about the dreaded dress. When I am ready to talk about it I will otherwise I wish everyone would drop it!