The thing is...

Feb 26, 2008 - 12:05 PM PST

I like the show, Quarterlife, but still, theyre lives are WAY more exciting than mine. Is this supposed to be like "quarter-life crisis" people, such as myself? Who are stuck in a dead end town, wheres theres no chance for anything and still living with parents? Hell, the kids on Degrassi have more exciting lives than me. I made a painting yesterday...and in the back of my mind, Im always like "hmm, I wonder what my mother will think of this". Its sick- its like Norman Bates, except my mom is still alive. But Im quickly getting over that- I put my first "nudes" out in my collection (ah yes, the exhibition of framed and canvased crap on my floor). Anyways its of a young woman drowning...thats how I feel. Even my dreams suck- its always me on the outside (or should that be inside). I have this pathetic phrase that goes through my head- "why not me?". I know it sounds sad, but Im tired, tired of picking myself up and being strong. I think its time for someone else to be strong for me for a while. But Im two months shy of 26. Everything is passing me by.