untitled 'cause titles are overrated.

Jan 27, 2008 - 18:54 PM PST

i dont really know what i'm going to write now, cause it feels really weird. so why use a title?

Saturday night my mom called my cell after a killer 8h work shift... it was around midnight and i was heading downtown to party with two friends.

she simply said "i dont know how to say this, so there it is: your grandma died."

way to kill the party.

anyways, i felt kinda sad for a few minutes but then i was okay.

now that i think of it it's not the fact that my grandma died that really disturbs me, it's the fact that it doesn't disturb me itself. quite a nutcracker since i'm no psychology doctor.

so i went to the funeral from thursday through saturday and it was even more boring than i expected. at least my cousins were there so i had an excuse not to spend my time with countless older people that i barely know asking me the same questions about how am i doing in school and if i have a girlfriend.

so anyways, some people said i was an emotionless selfish person because i always carry that pokerface at funerals.
i didn't know what to answer at the moment so i kept going on with my pokerface.
i think if i had thought of that one earlier i would have probably said something like "who isn't selfish anyways!"

the good part is: i saw my cousins again =)

-deeds