vomit

Feb 26, 2008 - 08:32 AM PST

when i think about her as a person, I feel bad for
her. because i know how it feels for something that
important to you to end, and to lose all the emotions
and effort you had invested. So as a person, I can
sympathize i guess. but when i think of her and him
together-how they use to be, it makes me sick. When I
see pictures of them together, being happy together, I
honestly want to vomit. I hate the idea of him ever
spending the kind of special moments we share with
someone else...and when i think about him looking at
her the way he now looks at me i just want to cry. I
have never had such a physical and sickening reaction
to my emotions concerning someone's ex girlfriend. Why
is that? Maybe I'm scared he still loves her...or that
he'll never love me more than her-no matter how much
he says he does....or maybe that he'll leave me broken
hearted like he left her. I don't know what it is but
it makes me physically ill...love is suppose to make
you feel like you have butterflies in your tummy...not
like you're about to vomit blood, like in some horror film.