Who am I?

Apr 15, 2008 - 20:16 PM PST

I am naturally indecisive. I am water. Calm and quiet. Seductive and strong. Solitary, yet inviting. I seek the truth in every situation. I am a romantic. I am an observer. I do not like being tied down by other’s expectation of me. I am a healer idealist. I put off tranquility for a life of reserved chaos. I care, perhaps too much, for a select few. I see unity in my being, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect. I am drawn to purity, but engaged by the profane, searching for the wickedness in me. I self-sacrifice when faced with impure temptation. My struggle between good and evil is within me. I have chosen not to make it a public issue, for it is my own.
I believe in God, I believe He watches over us. I believe that He loves us and wants the best outcome for us.
I am night. I wander, gazing at the stars, wondering if they know the secret of life. I wonder what they see looking down at mankind. I know more about love than you think. I have seen wars, pain, hate, lies, things that make me turn away and never love again. But, on occasion, I see love. I feel love, unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrolled, and unbearable, for, when I love, I put my entire being and existence into it which leads to my destruction. “My heart, it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it doesn't belong to me anymore. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange. No gifts, no goods, no demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you love me, too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.”