wow that turned out to be a rant

Jan 23, 2008 - 15:34 PM PST

So for the past couple weeks My friend and I have been looking for a new set of Wheels for me. My truck didn't pass da State Inspection cause the Cab-Mounts are bad therefor the Cab I drive around In Is just hanging on to the frame so just use your imagination. If I were to get into an accident or Roll the truck.. I could DIE! or just getting rear-ended hard enough could kill me.

So needless to say I can't afford to repair my truck this time, I was all ready to get somethen new but everytime me and my friend tryed getting the car something would happen So I gave up on It took It as a sign not to get the car. So all week after work I'm looken online for something and I have found a few things that are right up my ally...haha but I'm broke. My dad Is lending me $500 I have to come up with the rest kinda hard to do when I make LESS THEN $500 so I gotta either ask for a raise or get a part time gig again cause I know I'm not gonna get a raise just because there's been alot of shit going on at work. I really don't have much of a support system cause my dad Isn't nore has been the best father but I give the man credit he try's his best to help me when I need It.

My parents were divorced before I was 6 my mom raised us on her own then later remarried we moved out of state dad had us every 2 weeks, This Is all by memory couldn't tell ya how old me and my brother were but we were Babys! for the shit we were about to go through... Mom was thought to be pregnant later on we find out she's not pregnant but she has Ovarian Cancer *trembling right now* eventually mom was hospitalized we went to visit her alot I don't remeber much but I remeber one visit she was layen In bed I was rest part way on her part way on the bed slowly drifting off but I heard my mom talking to my aunt about giving up the fight cause she couldn't take It anymore. I can't remeber how long she fought but one day I wake up to get ready for school I walk into the kitchen I see my step dad all my aunts and uncles other fam. They didn't even have to say It I knew It just because they were all there. I remeber my step dad holding then he said stop crying be a man i went running to my room, not to long after putting my mom In the ground my step dad gives us back to our real dad and gets remarried. Now you see why my dad Isn't much of a dad but he trys and for that I give him credit.