Ramblings of a Drunk Gay Man!!!

Mar 16, 2008

The following was written on my last birthday. I thought I would just post it here so others could read it. It was originally posted on myspace.

Thanks!!!


So as my birthday has been approaching, I've been thinking about my life a lot. I've made a lot of changes over the last year. I quit my job, started back at school full time again, my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer.

It has really been an eventful year.

One thing has really been getting to me. Homophobia. I thought I was able to handle idiots and educate them, but lately I don't know anymore.

The last two times my boyfriend and I have gone out, I have had to deal with real idiots. People pointing and talking about us holding hands. People looking at us like we are a disease. Telling others to look at us.

This really got me thinking about all those idiots that say homosexuality is a choice. Why the hell would I choose to live this life? Why would I choose to not be able to marry? Why would I choose to have people hate me?????

News Flash!!!!!!!! No one in their right minds would choose this!!!!!! But I guess that brings us to those that think this is all some mental illness. I think that is such a cop out. So no one that fits in to your norm automatically is crazy???

I think I'm really tired of all this. I don't think I want people in my life that aren't completely ok with me. I'm tired of people saying they are ok with gays but then shutter when they see two guys kiss.

Or the one that really gets me are the people that say "The bible says living a homosexual life is wrong. But I don't like to judge. So I'll be nice to you." All they are saying is that they think I'm going to hell but don't want to come out and say it. Now for all you right wing idiots, how is it that you only recognize that section of the bible??? The bible also says you shouldn't eat shell fish. Or work on the day of the Sabbath. Or two women can not sleep in the same house when they have their period. Or how a daughter should be stoned for not obeying her father.

Now how about those people that think all gay guys want is sex. We are not capable of having a committed relationship. Well I've been with my man for almost 6 years. That is way longer than a lot of hetero marriages. And like straight people never cheat??? Or hey how are those swinger parties??? And I am soooo tired of straight men thinking it's "HOT" for two women to go at it but think it's gross if two men kiss.

Or how about those straight guys that think if they know a gay guy, he'll hit on him????? YOU ARE NOT THAT HOT!!!!!! If you can't land a girl, what the hell makes you think every gay guy in the world would want you?????

I don't want acceptance from people. It goes sooooo much further than that. I want respect. I want equal rights. I want to be a part of the human family, because right now, I feel like the dog you keep chained outside.

Now I'm sure many of my straight friends on here are going to read this and not know how to feel. I suggest you look inside yourself. If you feel like any of the people I have been talking about, then you are a homophobe.

I chose to have my birthday celebration at a straight club rather than a gay club, because I didn't want my straight friends to be uncomfortable.

I love all my friends. I am a good person, but know that I will not censor myself for you anymore. I will kiss my man whenever I feel like it.

And if any idiot wants to physically assault me because I'm gay, well this is one faggot that will go down fighting.